awshum day~

< sooo, i realized i have not blogged for a really really long time now. due to all the consecutive nights of working on summatives, it was close to impossible to find some time to blog and still be awake the next day. now, i usually dont really like blogging bout everything of my day cuz.. its just ..for sake of conversation "pretty normal" like, most ppl blog bout their days anyway... its got to be something special right? Well, for some ppl after reading this, they might be like.. wth? who cares.. buh for me, i thought it was pretty awesome. so im gonna blog bouts it.. yay~
it actually started out pretty normal, waking up on a saturday to go to chinese school... I was thinking, another week of school, and its school.. how fun could it be right? but as the school hours went on, it was actually pretty fun, we basically spent the whole class playing a game while studying for our exam next yr.. oh! and i payed attention. lol. (I probably spent like 5 classes throughout the whole year paying attention but yet still manage to pull off an 85) well, class was over and was picked up by my mom.. i decided to go to stc today because it was Old Navy's $1 flip flop sale. So we drove over to stc, my mom decided to park at Sears cuz parking at the theatres would be too crazy. So we got off and walked through sears... and we walked through the dresses. I saw one that looked okay.. i was browsing cuz i needed one neway for weddings in summer. my mom came over and was like.. wowww. these dresses are soo nice.. kept browsing.. next thing i know.. my mom pulls like 6 dresses out and tells me to try them on. Now, if you know me.. i AM NOT the type of girl that tries on 6 DRESSES at once. but i did anyway ><>
after that, we walked over to Old Navy to buy flip flops... i saw the line and i was ike... uh this is weird, how come theres like.. no body? i walked over to the place where the flip flops were supposed to be, and to my disappointment they were ALL SOLD OUT.. sad. shudbe known...>girls and their shopping habits >
>->here comes the awesomest part!! As i was walking through the food court i saw SOUP!.. yesss! at far i didnt believe it but as he came closer i realized it was him. For the LOONGESSTT time ever, i was wondering to myself.. what would i do if i saw him in public... I kinda just stood there and waved and hoped he saw me cuz he was looking down.. and yay! he saw me... i think i wud have totally shunned myself in a corner if he walked by. But he didntt hahaha yay!! K so, he saw me and he gave me a huggg... yayya! and obviously i hugged him back : DD, and then we had a short convo.. it went something like this:
P:hey, here by yourself?
S:oh.. no, im here with my mom
P:ohh, icc. yahh.
S: are you here by yourself too?
P:um, yah, just picking up some stuff... hahah
S; Hmm.. ic *slaps him on forehead*
P:*slaps backk* kay, i'll see around then
S: alritee.. byebye..
and we just walked off.. we were going diff directions.. ahhh.. that just made my day, i would have never expected to see him there, otherwisee i wouldbe dressed up nicer.. lol, instead of t-shirt, shorts and flipflops.. yah. lil embarassing but still cool.... hahah, omgshhh yaya ^^!!
yah, then after that my whole day was also pretty cool.. went home, practiced some guitar (that i just bought yesterdayyy: D) and msned a bit. then i went to felly. and we made our own pretzels from homemade dough, it tasted really good actually : DD ..
ahhhh!, i couldnt have asked for a better day. I can sleep with a smile on my face tonight :)

good enough.

Today was a pretty long day, and ive been basically preparing myself for the past week and espeicially today, for tonight's aci spring concert! There was only ONE reason.. wait.. one GOOD reason, why i was looking forward to this night: after almost 11 months i finally get to see soup again ^^. As i came up on stage for my first performance of the night, i scanned the audience and maybe i just didnt see him, slowly, i began to doubt if he took back on his words and didnt come. As i finished that performance, i left the music rooms and walked into the audience and sat in the balcony. To my surprise while scanning the audience from the back. Soup was there! It was pretty much the happiest moment in my day, and i instantly started partially freaking out b/c i didnt kno how to react from all the.. craziness! I eventually had the guts to walk down to where he was sitting and sit 2 seats away from him (the 2 seats were taken). i waved and he waved back, and smiled. hahah. I think i probably died then :D
So, the night continued on, and my next performance wasnt until after intermission. I sneaked in a bit of my warm up time so i can actually talk to him say hi and whatever.. to other ppl i invited too ofc. But it was already 9 and it looked like soup was gonna go because he had somewhere to go to. I tried as hard as i can to not sound desperate to make him stay. afterall, inviting him to come was the only thing that wouldve made my day totally awesome even if i screwed up.. or something. Sadly, i quickly had to go back and i didnt get a chance to say bye to him or hug him before he left. (he left when i was warming up on stage)
So, i went to my performance after intermission, and when i looked to where Soup was supposed sitting / standing..., i saw him get up, and leave the aud. I was soo sad, it kinda felt like it didnt even matter if i did a good job for the rest of the concert or not. Ofc, performance after performance after that, i was looking for him but still no luck. I thought hed come back, but i guess not. Well, seeing him again was enough to put a smile on my face :) -sigh- so much for getting over someone. Feelings just cant be forced... cant force them to go away, as much as you might want them to, its harder than you think. It's always the little things of that person that remind you why you love them so much.. haha. ^^. It;s been fun/interesting/tiring all at the same time. only partially worth it but more than anything i couldve expected (audience wise). No one can tell what's gonna happen in the future, so all i can do is leave the rest to God :) "que sera sera"-whatever will be, will be-

pressure's on!

lol, well.. actually not THAT much pressure. but enough for me to be nervous for most concerts lol. It's gonna be a fun night tmr. (hopefully) and i hope i dont screw up, or else.. i might like totally go emo.. lol oh mann! : D

ew to descision making!

i think im slowly getting lazier and lazier and summatives time is coming up. espeicially with so much music stuff to practice for and things to .. accomplish before um.. this year i guess? LOL. and most of it is from "partying" and staying up late, causing me to not want to wake up in the morning and go to school. haha. theres always the tempted feeling to skip class too.. =/

so yesterday was like, an epic waste of a planned day? kinda? lol... something close to that but not really.. kay anyway! macbeth was quite... bleh~~! at least i didnt fall asleep this time haha. Kay after that was done we(jL, SL,and i) went to meet (jL, aL, n?, and aj) and we just chilled downtown and killed so much time before finally decided we would walk to the closest baskin robbins to get the 31cent-deal .. it wasnt long before sL and i decided to head back up town cuz it was getting late, and she had to go back home.. haha so i was like.. meh, might as well... and we also wanted our 31cent ice cream... so STC would be the perfect place.. no long line.. *or so we thought:* we got there... saw the line.. and was like... "yeeeeaahh.. lets just go to.. yogen fruz/laura secord" , and i said, "oh, i have spc.. for laura secordd".... "okay, lets go there" hahah. so she went to buy her $3 ice cream.. without lining up for 1 1/2 hours. haha : D. She eventually left me at stc with nothing much to do until ppl from felly got there... i called them up and told them that the line up was uber long so i was being nice and started lining up for them. to make a long story short - the 1 1/2 hrs standing in that line by myself was the worst 1 1/2 hours of my whole entire life!! so complicated! so boring! and so... ohidogh! (whatever that means=/) well, after 1 1/2hrs i got my double scoop of citrus twist and choc. chip cookie dough. *mmm* ^^.

that night while i was recalling the events that happened throughout the day, a conversation i had with sL on the subway back kinda struck me. it was about asking soup to come to the ACI spring concert.... We came to a conclusion that if i invited soup she would invite BLM. at that moment it was like.... OKAY!! LETS DO IT! . but now its like.... "ahh... !!" Of course, no doubt i want him to come... but asking him is the hard part. how am i gonna ask him? i havent seen him in so long... sigh, and as cheesy/soft/girly/love-dovey/"so-not-me" as this next part might sound... i really really miss him =( and i really want him to come. im actually quite scared of asking him... mostly, scared of.. rejection? like.. what if he.. says no. or like what if he sounds... hesitant to come.. -sadface- it's come to a point now where... i dont even kno how to start up a good convo anymore, and im so bad with words. i will be uber sad face if hes not able to make it, cuz ierno what else i can do nemore.. everyone else coming wont even matter as much as soup coming.. Despite all these...'complications' i kinda promised sL i would ask, so im gonna ask him.. tomorrow... oh man!!!

short&simple.

today was an uber long day.
-spent 12 hours partying at a friends house
-signed a massive card
-watched friend open our epic present
-worshiped
-met new people
-played intense truth or dare
-played failed frisbee
-came home uber late.
yea... that pretty sums up everything that i did today. its 2am, and i really should be sleeping. very very tired, but still blogging just for the .. sake of it? and because it wouldve taken up way too much time to type out everything in details.. so. G'NIGHTS !

oh mann~ i just realized that i have not blogged online .. for the past.. however many days. No, actually, that was a partial lie.. i DID realize... i just didnt know that it was for so long.. haha. wow. lammee.. =.=

Anyhow.. HMMS... the past few months have been quite UN-eventful/boring/slow-paced.. ofc, there are definately the few days where i go out, have fun, and blehblehbleh.. no not literally, but k, i hope you understand what i mean... xD! Generally speaking, my life has been.... very... "repetitive"? you know.. like, the usualy. wake up, school, hwk, sleep, dinner, yeah ? prettyy much right... i guess so. And through looking back at all this.. i can not exactly pinpoint the exact reason to all of this. its just weird... even talking to some of my friends, ive been so lifeless... and ugh. so sad=( im such a horrible friend.. i dont kno how to cheer ppl up when theyre down, at times, i dont know how to continue a conversation, and personally... i hate leaving things like that so open-ended. often times, i want to say something, but i dont kno which words to use, and what to say... and this hasnt happen.. just once. its been quite consistent for the past few months, to ierno... maybe ALL my friends, whether they notice or not...idk, but its noticable to me. : and i apologize to everyone that i might've indirectly ignored, or have been a bit cold to them lately.. well, after thinking to myself and venting towards a few non-living objects... xD i think im better now.. haha. trying to think positive, and look happy, .... : DDDDD !!

hm, but life goes on right. so today was another sunday... today, i was determined to pay attention, and stay awake... in both sunday school and sunday sermon.. but after unconsciously sleeping at 4am the night before, i found that it was quite impossible, sunday school was not too bad... cuz i have people bside to give me that nudge once in a while... and i guess i did have my sugar in the morning..xD However, that did not last long, and as we proceeded to service, i looked at the bulletin and realized i was doing overhead... which also means... i was gonna be sitting in the front, right in front of my pastor.... this was terrible!! As much as i had tried to stay awake, it didnt happen... i was trying to hide behind the computer.. but yea. didnt work out so well... kinda hard to say.. "hope he didnt see me" considering that i was sitting in the front.. xD OH WELLS. so that eventually ended.. and like we usually do at redeemer on the third week, there's bball after.. i dont play with them but sometimes i hang around cuz my mom is at prayer meeting. Today was a bit different though. without having anything planned... i ended up going to lunch with LK, JH, and my pastor... seems pretty normal right? like having lunch with 3 ppl from church... quite normal. but no, not this lunch. it's probably the awkwardest/weirdest group of ppl i could ever ever EVER go with.. because... i guess you can say.. i havent always..."liked" these ppl.. UGH. in my mind on the way going there.. all i was thinking was.. oh man, its gonna be weird.. why did i come... ah, wheres gor.. =(. Upon sitting at the table, there was soo soo soo many awkward silences. and i hope i dont ever ever have to do that again. Not with only the four of us at least.....

Coming home after that it was quite chill.. watched some tv, went on the comp, and realized... "OH CRAP! i think i have an eng assignment due tmr" when this had crossed my mind, i went downstairs pulled out my english binder, looked at the asgnmnt sheet and decided.. nope, i am not gonna finish this by tmr, compromised with my laziness, looked at my comp, and came to the conclusion that im probably gonna skip.. or go early to school and talk to my teacher.. shes usually lenient towards these things..heh. such a slacker... K, after checking some e-mails and what not i was bored and tired and went to take a nap. I later found out that my nap lasted for 4 1/2 hours.. i slept at 6 and woke up at 10 30. actually.. my dad woke me up to tell me to eat dinner. When he woke me up. i was thinking.... WHAT THE HECK? ITS MORNING ALREADY? but. i looked out my window and it was still dark, so i was like.. huh? why did my dad wake me up at the middle of the night. but i looked at my phone, and i was like...=.= its 10 30, i guess i was just SOO tired, and so into my sleep and my bed is so compfy.. that i guess i lost track of time. wow, ive never done tat before.. haha. now i'll probably be up for a while.. or sleep again... since ive been losing so much sleep. xD

yea, i think im gonna do that now... haha. k.bye :D

spontaneously 'planned' adventure day.

so, how shall i start this? kay, anyway. today was such a totally awesome fun day.. haha
First... i woke up at 8 15, realizing i had to shower, and get ready and leave my house within 30 mins for my church;s good friday service. haha, yeahhh. that didnt happen. it was more like... by the time i figured out what i wanted to wear and finished showering it was already 30 mins. and i hear my dad rushing me to leave the house.. yea. we were actually on time for the service. but very very late for when we were supposed to get there.. espeicially when my parents had to help set up.... (oops.) hehe.

service finished exactly at 11:35, and so i decided to go and change and everything for sLO's baptism. and figured by the time i get there it would be around the same time they get there cuz they ttc-ed from stc to finch station.. hahaha. nice. anyway!!. i eventually got there and eventually found them. haha. timing was actually pretty good. xcept for the fact that we spent like 15mins calling and trying to look for eLAM who was already at finch station... -epic fail- once we had everyone together, we bused down to NTCBC for sLO's baptism/lunch. By the time we got there, half the lunch was already gone and most of it was cold. but still, it was good enough considering i didnt eat anything the whole morning.. haha! so, the day continued after that to sLO's baptism.. and the good friday service. i guess i was just too tired to sit thru another service. haha two services in a day is way to intense. haha.

Well, when that was over we (jL, eL, sL, sC, eW, aJ, bH) decided what we wanted to do.. some went home and... went off. hahah me, aJ, and sC decided to stay for a bit and chill until dinner haha.. we decided to go to TCMC because i guess we didnt want to wait for sLO, afterall, we wouldnt be doing anything anyway... haha. we bused to TCMC and sat thru their worship practice and sang along to chill and whatnot. it was quite relaxing haha. so, sharon finally came to meet back up with us... and when the practice ended we decided that we shall go for dinner... it took us a long while before we finally decided to get all you can eat sushi. Sadly, finding a place without a car, with all you can eat sushi on a friday and holiday under $20 was more difficult than i thought it would be.. hahah. So, heres when all the reall craziness begins!.

After sC calling a friend for a place, we made the descision to go to Tenichi at Markham Rd. and Sheppard. and we bused there from McCowan and 401. Fortunately, with all the talking and chilling together, the bus didnt take too long and we arrived at our destination. Before entering this restaurant, we figured. we should probably check the prices before going in.... tunrs out it was wayy over our budget. Partially stranded out at Markham Rd. an Sheppard with transfers that dont work, we had to find another all you can eat sushi place that fit all the requirements. Once again, we had to go thru the whole process and the bus was just a few metres away... and we werent even close to the bus stop.=/ Thankfully, the bus driver stopped in the middle of the road for us and we actually decided on the next place we could go to eat ON the bus ride... which was... Hyakka at Middlefield and Steeles. So, we got off the Sheppard bus at Middlefield and were trying to figure out if we should bus.. or walk to our destination. After a long enough period of time, we finally got on the bus.. hahah yesh! and its a good thing we didnt walk cuz it probably wouldve taken us a while. haha, Anyway. we got to Hyakka, and finally got seated and satisfied with the place.. *PHEWWWW* !

Jap buffet is always good... (well, most of the time) and dinner with friends is always fun. This dinner with this group of friends was totally awesomeee!! ahaha.,, way too much fun over raw food, rice, shrimp, and beef... hahah! I dont think we lasted 3 mins straight without bursting into laughter. and seriously.... i think we were like.. the loudest table there.. but not the biggest. hahah! Todays lesson: While eating at jap buffet...or any place where you might eat excessively... DO NOT drink or eat food while laughing... cuz, this will result in... bleh! bleh! bleh!.. which when translated into normal english means.. puke/barf. hahah yesh. i puked from laughing too hard and drinking coke at the same time... hahah.. BAD BAD BAD ideaa! i think after that, almost everyone was full and almost felt like barfing... hehhe.. well... As we called our last round of food and dessert, we were just chilling and talking and trying not to laugh.. haha. this was almost close to impossibilty .. but no one actually barfed... hahaha!
the day was long and tiring. but in the end all worth it and so much fun. espeicially when fellowshipping with brothers and sisters in Christ:D

So, that was my day in 5 short paragraphs.. haha. in total... i spent... $25 and 1..2...3..4...5.. 6... bus tickets... SIX BUS TICKETS. in one day... thats riDONKulous.. ahah probably like 3 more that was needed if we had everything figured out before hand. Nonetheless this day of spontaneous-nessss and adventure with friends was totally coolll!! haha......